From Bad to Worse

Kairit fell yesterday on the way to the bathroom in her apartment.  Her left leg completely twisted and bent backwards.  It is fortunate that Anto was there. He called for an ambulance right away. Kairit was taken to the local hospital where an x-ray showed she had torn the ligaments and tissue in her leg up to the knee.  The doctors sent her home with a brace and told her to keep her leg elevated and still for the next week. They recommended ice packs and offered her pain medication. Kairit refused the medication because she is concerned about the interaction with the Imuran.

I only heard about this terrible turn of events this morning as I skyped with my sister-in-law Margit and then Kairit's younger sister, Hurmi.  Health care in the USA is often determined by one's insurance coverage. It is no different in Estonia where universal coverage gets you some help but private coverage may get you more.  In addition, many of the doctors are not motivated to help when care is needed. One of my nieces near Tallinn had a fever for two weeks and despite calling her doctor requesting an appointment citing her fever, stuffy nose, blocked ears and pain in her face, it wasn't until she was well in her third week of discomfort that the doctor reluctantly gave her time. He then prescribed antibiotics after which she was better in a few days. In the meantime, she had lost more than two weeks of work and suffered unnecessarily.

In Kairit's case, she is only one of three patients in Estonia (with a population under 2.5 million people) who have ever been diagnosed with ALS.  There is little knowledge among doctors there about the disease and patient care and no incentive to learn more.  Kairit's doctors at Tartu University Hospital are doing the best they can but it is also up to patients to advocate for themselves and the country's citizens to demand more.

With that in mind, I suggested that despite it being a weekend, that Hurmi try to reach Kairit's main physician at Tartu to make her aware of Kairit's accident and acute pain and her reluctance to take any pain medication until discussing it with her doctor.  ALS is not a painful disease, although horrific, but taking strong medication usually given to cancer patients and then having severe pain from an injury and the psychological curveball in trying to stay positive is almost too much for Kairit to bear.

Life has gone from living in one room....to a nightmare.

A Visit to Estonia

The past two weeks have been a reality check in Estonia. Kairit's life now takes place in one room of her comfortable apartment in the small town of Haapsalu. My visit confirmed suspicion that Kairit's optimistic nature and sense of humor belied the truth of her situation. When her boyfriend Anto is available, he carries Kairit into the shower that has been newly redone to suit a disabled person for bathing. However, one needs to be able to step up about six inches to get into the shower

room and Kairit is unable to do that.

Over the past few months, Kairit's mother, my half-sister, Aino, has taken on more and more responsibility caring for her. She can still walk a short distance to the bathroom with the help of a walker and a strong hand guiding her. Her gait, however, is less steady. Kairit is also having trouble sitting up in bed without help. She has less use of her hands and her fingers appear to be thinner and atrophied. When she's on her laptop computer, she uses her curled fingers to type on the keyboard.

To make matters worse, she and Anto have used up their mutual goodwill and their relationship is tenuous. Kairit understands that he is healthy and well and needs to move forward with his life. She does not want to be a burden to him or unkind but sometimes her anger at her situation gets the best of her. Anto has been a good help but the time is coming when her physical situation will require more trained and able caregivers. Aino will care for her daughter as long as possible with help and occasional weekend relief from another daughter who lives an hour away but works and has a young son. Kairit wants to stay home as long as possible but ALS is taking its toll physically, mentally and emotionally.

There is also still no consensus on her diagnosis. One of her doctors believes that it is yet possible that she has MMN (multifocal motor neuropathy) and has prescribed a drug called Imuran. The drug that is often used by some cancer patients is being used off-label here. She may experience nausea, dizziness, and other symptoms or she may have no reaction at all. My understanding is that if the drug helps her in a 4-5 month period, then she has the autoimmune system disease. The drug could itself cause cancer in the long term but Kairit felt it was worth trying for a few months to see if anything changed in regard to the motor neurons. In any case, neither ALS or MMN is a good diagnosis although with MMN one can live longer. In Kairit's case, does that mean a continuation of life in a room or would she be able to work, get out of her apartment, and lead a more normal existence? Or is MMN simply three different letters to a similar health issue?

Life in a room. Eat. Sleep. Watch TV. Read. Google. Email. Occasional visits from friends. Wait to deteriorate. Cry...while loved ones also cry and hearts break.